My story is about control and how I lost it. It’s the story behind why I want to help you take control of your life in college: your homework, fun, grades, stress, and career – control of your future.
Before high school, I had always been good at two things: playing hockey and getting good grades. Despite being from a small town in the middle of nowhere Czech Republic, I received financial aid to attend Hotchkiss – a prestigious boarding school in the US – when I was 15 years old.
Hotchkiss changed my life and I loved every second of it. But coming from a humble background, I knew that my parents would not be able to afford college tuition after my boarding school education was over, so I worked as hard as I could in the classroom and on the ice to achieve my dream of playing hockey for a US college.
I’m not sure what you know about boarding school life, or what your experience there has been, but Hotchkiss helped me strive for my goals because my life was structured. I had a consistent class and practice schedule, I would get detention if I missed class, I had to get my readings done for each class, and most importantly I studied at the same time every day during ‘study hall.’ I couldn’t stay up all night watching youtube videos because the internet would shut off. I had a routine enforced by the school and I thrived.
My hard work paid off my senior year when I was accepted into Harvard with full financial aid and I was drafted by the Philadelphia Flyers. Life was good.
But this was also the year when my struggles began. I had a knee surgery, a high-ankle sprain and I developed chronic back pain as soon as I was out of my ankle boot, all within a few months before I enrolled at Harvard.
My chronic back pain lasted for two and a half years. Whatever I did, I was in pain and that was the state in which I was supposed to play college hockey, expected to not only help the team but to also focus on my studies.
I struggled from day one. I had to spend way more time at the rink than healthy players, which exhausted me and I fell more and more behind on my school work.
I was losing control of the two things I had always excelled in: my spot on the team was threatened, and I was put on probation for having bad grades. Not a fun situation.
I started feeling depressed. I was always tired – I would fall asleep after reading three pages every night. My college life became a constant struggle and I couldn’t pull myself together. Every time I started doing better, another injury would bring me back down (torn shoulder, another high-ankle sprain, hip problems… you name it, I had it.)
However, I still believed that if I got my hockey career back on track, I would find the strength to focus on my studies and turn it around. So the summer before my junior year, I put everything I had – physically and mentally – into getting my back pain under control and into getting strong so that I could be a good hockey player again.
And it worked! I returned as the strongest player on the team. I started to get my confidence back on the ice; I found it easier to concentrate on my school work; my back was feeling way better; I was in a good relationship. Things were looking up.
And BOOM! I tore my wrist the last scrimmage before the season. I was told that I’d need surgery and that the recovery would take five to six months – basically the duration of the entire hockey season. I also wouldn’t be able to use my hand to write and type for a few months. Great!
I stepped back and looked at my situation realistically – two seasons of barely playing, now a full season of not playing at all. Behind on school work, bad grades, and no idea what I want to do with my life. So, I made the toughest decision of my life. I quit playing hockey and I didn’t get the wrist surgery so that I could finish the semester in school.
I thought that if I didn’t play hockey that I would have more time to focus on my studies and to figure out what I wanted to do.
Boy, was I wrong. Without hockey, I didn’t know who I was. I didn’t know what I wanted to do. My stress and depression from the previous two years kicked back in – now even harder. I had way more time on my hands, but I wasted it. The rest of my junior year was nothing I could be proud of.
As Jim said, I eventually started to figure out how to get things done the right way and trust me when I tell you that his study method works! But it was a bit too late for me since I was already in my senior year. I did get better grades my, but the damage has been done during my first 3 years. Graduation rolled around, I had a bad GPA and no job.
I tasted the bitter reality of how hard it is to get a job after college.
I worked at a farm – cutting grass, chopping trees, and shoveling manure for 4 months – something I thought I’d never have to do with a Harvard degree.
Finally, I landed my first real job as an assistant project manager at a construction company, and I felt that my stars had aligned and I started to piece my life together.
But same as before, what little control I had gained back, I lost completely. Within the span of one week, my 3-year long relationship crumbled, I lost my job, and my grandpa passed away. Paying $1,600/month for a tiny, cockroach-infested apartment, no job, no money, and alone in New York – I was screwed. For two weeks, all I could do was sit on a couch and focus on not having a complete meltdown (which, I totally had).
As you can imagine, I needed to take a break after my “eventful week.” That’s when I went to see Jim, my mentor since high school. We started talking about my experience and about how he’s trying to help students get better grades.
I learned a lot at my first job in New York, as the skyscraper we were building was logistically one of the most difficult projects in New York’s history and the project managers were the best of the best. I realized how important it is to have a good plan to be able to execute tasks every day.
Jim and I started exchanging ideas, not only about how we could help struggling students like myself but also good students who wanted to do even better. That’s when the idea for a highly accurate study planner (Shovel) was born, and that’s when I made it my mission to help every student I could so that they would not have to go through my experience.
If you’ve read this far, you understand that our mission is very personal to me. I screwed up, but I want to help you not make my mistakes.
Everything on this site is designed to help you succeed in college so check it out. Mainly the How To Study section. And then just grab your Shovel study planner and start shoveling your pile of homework.
Hit me up in the chat in the bottom right corner of any page if you have any questions. I’m here to help.
To read about an awesome guy who wants nothing more than to help you succeed in college, read Jim’s story.